Showing posts with label First Steps. Show all posts
Showing posts with label First Steps. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

15. The best hours to write

Everyday, I spend a couple of hours reading manuals about the world of writing. I hope that expression sums it all up: techniques, grammar, advices, commercial VS literary, other authors, editors, agents, publishers, readers... I'm an addict for knowledge about the things that are driving me the most on each moment of my life.

After reading all the advices and techniques, I like to test them and eventually make them into my own advices to myself, and stick to what works.

Many of us, when we start our first novel, like to know how our favorite authors found their inspiration and most of all, when do they write, for how long at a time and even where. The reality is that each author discovered his/hers own method, usually is very specific (or not at all) and works exclusively with them.

I read a lot of advices stating we should write first thing in the morning, because it's when we are 'fresh' and full of energy. I've tried that. Nothing came out. The screen remained white because everything I wrote made me furious or depressed and wondering if writing was really for me.

Then I read an improvement to that first advice: go outside first, walk a bit, then write. Yes, I wrote. Nothing relevant to the story I really wanted to tell tough. So it got deleted again.

Since then, I've read about authors that only write every 2nd or 3rd day, between which they continue their daily life always thinking about their plot in their minds. I discovered I do that, I'm constantly thinking about new actions and new dialogues. My characters seem to be living inside my head, growing while I get to know them better and better. However, if I spend 2 or 3 days without writing something meaningful, I get a bit lost and my confidence drops.

I've also read about authors that write during lunch time, others after lunch, other in the middle of the afternoon, or at dinner, or after dinner, lots before bed, many wake up and write or don't even have a specific time to sleep and few writers that don't have a specific time to write. All of these authors, whatever the hour, do the most important thing in their career: write in the timeline that works for them.

So, after more than a month writing and testing myself, I've discovered my method:
I wake up and watch TV for an hour, sometimes two. Yes, TV it's the devil for some, but people inspire me everywhere, so those 2 hours-a-day boost me up.
During the rest of the morning I read manuals on creative writing, stop to do some household chores, sometimes outside, read more pages of another manual, stop for more chores, surf the web to read a couple of blog entries or sites about writing, stop to lunch, clean a bit more and starting from 14h30 (usually) I sit and start working on my novel.

Usually I write until my husband gets home, and that varies, but usually he arrives around 18h30/19h00.

At night, before I go to sleep, I like to relax and read any book I find entertaining, good written and inspiring.I strongly believe we should never stop being readers, first of all. At the moment, my lullaby has been "The Host", by Stephenie Meyer.

So while there's really no specific hour that we all should choose to write, scientifically proven to be the best performance time line, there's certainly a specific period of the day that works better for each one of us and it's as individualized as we all are, as complex human beings.

Vanessa Condez, Note to self: Humanize.
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Thursday, December 17, 2009

13. If it's not scary, it's not for you

I heard somewhere, many years ago, that we should go for the things that make us scared. Obviously, they didn't mean date a psychopath! Only the things that you are scared of but at the same time never really leave your mind. Those are the things that will make you stronger after you've done them. Those are the things that define your limits, so when you overcome them the strength that comes from it is in discovering your life has no limits.

There is always something in my life that scares me. Some things involve other people, so all I can do is be patient and find ways to keep positive or find alternative solutions if necessary. Like the fear I have of never getting pregnant when my husband finally agrees to start a family. Then there are other small fears, about parts of my body that never worked that well, like my left eye, some day shutting down completely.

The good thing is that usually, the most overwhelming fears are the ones only we can do something about. That's why I believe they exist for a reason. My most overwhelming fear, after I finished my bachelors degree, was to never find a job in graphic & web design. I know it sounds easy to achieve, but my father educated me to be perfect in everything I did, the best and so on... so I grew up afraid of everything I had to do professionally and obsessed with knowledge. But lots of perseverance and even moving to another country, got me there, straight into a full time position with an amazing paycheck.

After a year, I discovered working in design, as commercial as it is today, not only didn't scare me anymore, but was draining me out. I kept doing the job, we bought a car that broke down, we bought another, went on vacations and yet our savings kept getting bigger and bigger (still are very healthy, I'm against credit cards or loans), until one day the economic crisis hit the company, they fired several people before discovering they had to let me go too. That was this October, and I officially left the office in November. Common sense whispered to me that I should apply to another job, doing exactly the same thing. But mentally I was stressed, irritated and feeling very old, with only 30 years of age.

Someone told me to take a couple of months off, relax, enjoy my savings, myself, my fresh married life. Doing that consciously, not applying to another job, was scary as well. What would everyone think?

The next thing was discovering what scared me the most, and that was admitting, after all that hard work, I didn't want to work in design anymore. My family still doesn't know. That's one of the joys of living in another country.

And writing came along after that, very easily, almost like it was meant to be since the beginning, the scariest thing and the thing I should be doing all along.

It feels right.
I know eventually I may want to start a new job (part-time or full-time), but I know now that I will never stop writing again, especially in English, my second language. And the funny thing is writing is scary every-single-day! And that's why I do it.


Vanessa Condez, Note to self: Humanize.
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Monday, December 14, 2009

10. Music gets me there

Music always helped me write. At the moment, I'd recommend Zero 7, Dave Mathews (these guys can never go wrong!) and New Moon's OST.
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Vanessa Condez, Note to self: Humanize.
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Thursday, December 3, 2009

7. Counting words

I wrote 1.971 words today!!!

Hurray for new-beginnings!

From now on I shall NOT break this habit!! - Not that I impose that same number everyday; to be honest I was happy with just 250 of good creative writing. Than that number was quickly reached and I thought 'Okay, 500'. Than 1000, than 1200, and so on... until I just stopped looking at the numbers and went with the flow. Apparently 1900 is my limit because my head started to hurt.... autch!


I had to leave my heroine alone in a room with a skinny old man asking a very difficult question in a cold ironic voice. Poor girl. I'll be back tomorrow to see how she's holding on.

Vanessa Condez, Note to self: Humanize.
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

5. Structure

My writing - on itself - is on standby, though it never really stops in my head. I felt the need to focus on the full story structure and am finding more useful to define bullet point lists of what's on my mind for each chapter, than to start writing without an idea of what's going to happen next.
Reading books on Creative Writing before going much further, has given me that much needed self confidence that every first time writer craves. I'm learning a lot from Mary Mackie's "Creative Editing", taking several notes, but can't wait to get my hands on all the other manuals I brought from the library, before it's time to return them.
My husband is supporting me a lot in what I feel represents one of my biggest leaps of faith - but I know that if I hadn't stop everything else going on in my life to just focus on my book, I wouldn't take it so seriously.
Most of the time it's an exciting challenge, specially because I'm writing in my second language - that makes it scarier,- but I know this is the time (no kids, no bank loans, no stress) and somehow I feel that it will be worth it. Fighting for our dreams always is, if you really mean it and promise yourself never to give up.

Vanessa Condez, Note to self: Humanize.
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Thursday, November 26, 2009

2. Two first steps

My first step after realizing my writing potential, was to ignore it. I don't know if this can count as an excuse, but I was 7. Usually we know writing is special to us pretty soon, around the same time we learn how to start, develop and finish a story on paper. I was lucky enough to have my family encouraging me to express with written words since I was 5 and I started to read all sort of books on my dad's shelves soon after, tough I was never confident enough to believe that was special, and still fight my doubts everyday.

So around 7 I loved poems and wrote short stories for school. Soon after, somebody offered me a diary at Christmas and I wrote everyday. I filled several diaries for many years until I was 20 and my first true love of 3 years, ended. Yes, I'm talking about the love between a boy and a girl, tough I see it now: my first true love was writing.

Anyway, my confidence was put down and I stopped believing in fairy tales altogether. No one really lives of their writing, right? I should grow up and focus on my future!

Well, I was partly right - no one should start writing for money - but if I'd pay attention, I would know that writing kept me balanced and you just really grow up at 30, so may as well try some craziness in your 20's and find some self forgiveness after.

I was never completely off writing, but I did it so randomly that nothing I wrote was ever finished or good enough. I've been fighting my own self all these years. I've been keeping myself from what makes me human; hiding my emotions, fighting my guts off and living the professional dream society stands me proud of.

Am I crazy for giving that all up? Yes, I probably am. At the time, I'm cleaning society out of me. Do you ever get the feeling that you don't live in society, but society lives inside you? That's how I feel. I'm washing it all up. I'm on a brake from rules and what's wise. I'm actually writing my first novel and wondering what my second job's gonna be. And it's not gonna be about money: I already lived that dream: it was nice and empty.

This time around, it's about me. They say you only start living at 30, hope they're right.
So my first step after realizing my writing potential - at 30! - was to run to the nearest library and find what the hell can I do with it. I brought 7 manuals about Creative Writing, Creative Editing, Grammar and Syntax, ...

As I read "the only way to learn how to write is to sit down and do it" (Mary Mackie), guess my second step? Whether I'm scared or full with confidence, I always sit down, open my laptop and add words to my novel. It's not always magical, but one of the things I've learned so far is that magic is nothing but a group of tricks you master with practice.

Note to self: Humanise - a blog about Creative Writing
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